It’s not the jump, it’s the falling off the cliff where you grow.

For more than a year I have dreamed of the time when I could dedicate 100% of my time to my own projects, being self-employed and building a business to equip people and organisations to navigate the bittersweet journey called life. I was excited to take the leap, full of hope, energy and excitement. What I did not anticipate is the high level of anxiety and self-doubt that are accompanying this jump. In all the joyful anticipation I neglected to prepare myself mentally and emotionally for the post-leap.

Because taking the leap also means exposing myself in a completely new way. I am chasing my dreams which also means there is so much more on the line, so much more to loose. What happens if I fail? Do I have another dream? Could I cope with the worst case scenario?

The answer is clearly yes. There will be times (like now) where I am in mid air and where I will not know if the landing will be soft, hard or if I take off before I land. No one knows that, but it is up to me what happens next.

So I choose to be self-compassionate, letting go of the idea that everything needs to be perfect from the start and that I can control the outcome. Results are just an outcome, they are not my worth. The only thing I can control is how I show up every day, taking one step at a time. It is not the jump, it’s the falling off the cliff where I grow. And grow I will, regardless of the outcome.